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As far as the winter interests, I finished the beginning fencing class and decided I'm more into épée than saber or foil, but the intermediate class will have to wait until I have more evening time. Archery's been slow, for the same lack of evening time. I did pick up one of these but have had almost no chance to use it. The Russian is trudging along. I'm subscribed to the RSS feed of the BBC News in Russian for a little daily practice. I highly recommend subscribing to BBC news in whatever language you're learning.

Omelettes are tasty. I'm trying to work out an ovo-lacto-vegetarian low-carb diet, or at least low-refined carbs. Hard to do. Staying away from sugar is a good start. I'm not so much interested in the Atkins/weightloss angle (although I could stand to lose 10-15). Read up on 'metabolic syndrome', triglycerides, insulin, and 'diseases of civilization'. You're not supposed to be eating refined carbs. It screws up your metabolism. Rant!

I've read through Shadowrun 4th edition, but will have to wait on doing anything with it until my friends all quit their jobs and stop having kids.
 
 
Current Music: Up Above the Sea - John Vanderslice
 
 
 
Joshua
17 January 2008 @ 06:39 pm
Blame [info]madfishmonger for sending me to YouTube for music videos.

 
 
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Current Mood: organic
 
 
Joshua
04 March 2007 @ 12:54 pm
[info]lilac_wine has a post up about downloading of her work. I think it's friends-only, so I won't include any summary or details, but regardless my comment was getting so long I decided to just post it here instead.

I'm going to disagree with a couple of her contentions, and it's not because I'm trying to lamely justify copying other peoples' work, or FITE THE SISTEM!!! I don't download books, both because I don't agree with it and because I can't imagine trying to read a novel on my laptop without going blind. It's just that this issue is obviously a big deal as the Internet grows, and I think clarity of terms helps the discussion move along productively. And I think a certain amount of rhetorical overreach by rights-holders (the RIAA and MPAA being the flagbearers for overreach) actually harms us long-term. Also, I'm going to say 'we' when I refer to rights-holders, both because I'm an aspiring author and because I want to make it clear I'm not going out of my way to defend filesharers.

Copyright violation isn't theft -- in any legal sense, at least. You can argue that it's theft by a more informal definition ('you're taking my monies'), but you'd have to show that the royalties lost from potential sales (meaning the downloaders who would have otherwise bought the content) is not offset by whatever increased sales result from whatever increased visibility results from wider distribution. I'm not going to argue either end of that. . it could be a billion dollar loss, and it could be authors are making money on the deal. I don't know, and people smarter than me have convincingly argued either side. The point is, I don't think it should be assumed, and certainly the RIAA's music calculations (every download is a maximum loss) are absurd and unhelpful.

In another non-legal sense, theft is taking something that doesn't belong to you (leading to analogies about stealing laptops). The problem here is that there are huge holes in the analogies that downloaders will exploit to ignore your argument. First, each individual laptop is very expensive to construct, both in parts and labor. Second, once it's taken, the original is gone, and the seller now no longer has the opportunity to sell that item to someone else. Clearly, neither of these facts obtain when it comes to copying copyrighted content. Each copy (either electronic or paper) is trivially cheap to construct and wouldn't represent a significant loss if it disappeared; and second, it doesn't even do that, because copying leaves the original unaffected, so it's still available for a sale or whatever else.

The law actually recognizes these facts. Copyright law does not descend from property law. Copyright is a legally-granted monopoly on the right to make and sell copies of a work. When you copy something I make, it's not illegal because you're stealing anything from me. It's illegal because the law gives me that exclusive right. Now, it can be fairly said that American capitalism is anti-monopoly (at least in theory), and therefore copyright represents a sort of odd exception in the law. It's for this reason that I don't think rights-holders should be too self-righteous about it. We've been given the gift of a monopoly in a society that is not too forgiving of monopolies, and should therefore tread a little lighter. Now, why do we have the monopoly? For reasons nicely elucidated by Thomas Macaulay in his speech to the House of Commons in 1841. Essentially, he contends, there are only two reasonable ways to remunerate authors and therefore encourage the production of their work: patronage and copyright. He argues effectively (for the time. I happen to believe patronage can work again, thanks to information networks) that patronage isn't up to the task. That leaves only copyright. In other words, copyright as a monopoly on copying is the least bad of a small number of options. It's not on par, in any sense, with laws on property and possession.

Another significant problem is that many corporations, most notably The Mouse, derive massive revenue from copyright in a manner wholly unrelated to its original intent. To that end, they have modified US (and therefore international) copyright law to such a ridiculous extent that it now has little to do with remunerating a content creator and everything to do with brand control. This huge overreach is part of the reason that there's such common disdain for copyright.

In other words, I think we as rights-holders were caught napping a bit, both by the ease of network-enabled copying and by the slow aggrandizement of corporate influence on content creation, and in response we're swinging sledgehammers around trying to make it go away, both to our detriment and the detriment of our audience. I believe arguments more in tune with what copyright actually is -- not what Disney or some of us want it to be -- and why it exists will be more convincing and more effective in the long run. Or, as lilac_wine says: "The RIAA needs to stop being so adversarial and start working on education".

For a better version of these thoughts, and from an author who is not aspiring, but published, you can read Eric Flint's meditation on copyright and DRM in this series of columns:
 
 
Joshua
03 March 2007 @ 02:54 pm
Television series from the last 30 years that I will recommend:

Monty Python's Flying Circus
M*A*S*H
MST3K
Monk
Battlestar Galactica (the modern one)
Heroes
 
 
 
Joshua
03 March 2007 @ 12:46 am
Pull the shades down, little swan
And let this dance without music
Soothe your cries

The candles burn low
But the light in your eyes
Is enough to guide
A slow hand through the night
 
 
Joshua
27 February 2007 @ 03:48 pm
Bed 1: Peas, Raspberries, Sweet Corn

Bed 2: Tomatoes, Carrots, Potatoes, Beets

Bed 3: Lettuce, Garlic, Frost's Random Mix

Elsewhere: Sweet Fennel, Pole beans, Apples, the Grapes that refuse to grow
 
 
Joshua
27 February 2007 @ 03:31 pm
If your apology begins "I'm sorry if", you're not apologizing.  Apologies aren't conditional.
 
 
Joshua
09 April 2005 @ 04:44 pm
One of the most pervasive elements of my personality, and I think of many other geeky people, is an obsession with the strength of foundations. By which I mean, I'm utterly incapable of building one structure on another . . whether it's a philosophical structure, a creative structure, a literal structure, whatever . . if I don't believe in the perfection and solidity of the foundation I'm building on. I don't think it's a product of fear. I think it's a product of simple aesthetics. Or a belief that flaws in a foundation can never be removed, and cut you off from perfection permanently. Or maybe it isn't a product of anything. . just a feature of my personality that's fundamental to who I am. This is the main reason I took up a career in software development, where we continually and rationally improve architectures and build upon them. And it's the main reason I'm uncompromising in my work, demanding that the library I'm building upon is effective and solid. It's also why I'm attracted to absolutist philosophies. . Objectivism as a youth, Kantian deontology, now a sort of blend of Austrian School anarcho-capitalism and Buddhism.

Navel gazing and time management in the cut )
 
 
Current Music: A Perfect Circle - Magdalena
 
 
Joshua
09 April 2005 @ 04:14 pm
Seriously.

I thought pink eye was a pseudosickness that malicious little playground doctors diagnosed for each other . . like 'cooties'. But noooo. It's 'conjunctivitis' . . caused by a virus. Frost had it. He woke up screaming a few nights ago because his eye itched and this made him scratch it, and this made it itch more. (It's very difficult for children to understand that you have to take a little pain now to avoid a lot of pain later. Actually, most adults don't get this either.) The next morning he looked like he'd just taken a jab from the ghost of Muhammad Ali. Big, swollen eyelid. . all crusty. We gave him eye drops. He hated that, too. He's fine now.

But last night my eye itched and now it's pink and won't open. How many adults have gotten pink eye. . ever?
 
 
Joshua
12 October 2004 @ 12:27 pm
Okay, song-blogging is generally tedious.

But if you don't think Cross Bones Style by Cat Power is one of the most profoundly moving songs ever created by a human hand, you're dead to me. I'm sorry, you just are.
 
 
Joshua
05 October 2004 @ 05:53 pm
If, like me, you at one time were a Metallica fan (A random sample suggests that the Metallica fan is now completely extinct. And yes, I stopped being a fan well before Lars decided to shiv their fans in order to. . well. . God knows why he did that) and have, at times, enjoyed Beatles songs, you will be happy to know that no longer will you have to look in two different places for your Beatles and Metallica songs!

For Beatallica mashes it all together, including the legendary Hetfield yeeeeaaaghh.

Do yourself a favor and enjoy Hey Dude.
 
 
Joshua
30 September 2004 @ 09:25 pm
So Frost, my three-year-old son, is currently in a robot-loving phase (also loving construction vehicles and monster trucks. I had nothing to do with this, I swear). I used to play a lot of Battletech/Mechwarrior, which was this futuristic tabletop/roleplaying game wherein people would climb inside big lumbering mechs (or robots, as far as Frost is concerned) and shoot at each other, and I still have the sourcebooks. Frost adores these and demands that Shannon I read them like storybooks. Except they aren't storybooks, they're just repetitive lists of mech types and their armaments. So we have to make up stories, like 'Gladiator was playing in the park and then he saw his friend Marauder. They played Frisbee, until Marauder's mom, Mauler, called them home to dinner' and so on. This happens a lot.

Tonight I found an unopened pack of cards for the ill-fated Mechwarrior CCG, and I opened it and gave them to Frost. He demanded to know all of the names and then he carried them around for the rest of the night. And he's just gone to bed snuggling them to his chest. Kind of disturbing, and yet adorable.

It occured to me that perhaps he would like a plush, stuffed robot. He has an Iron Giant and a few MegaMen and what not, but nothing he could sleep comfortably with. Sadly, googling has revealed nothing! In fact, all I found were comments from other people saying 'why can't I find any plush robots?'.

So if anyone has any leads on how to get a hold of a bear-sized stuffed robot. . preferably in the 50's Iron Giant style, that would be greatly appreciated.
 
 
Joshua
29 September 2004 @ 06:03 pm
First day of Russian class this morning. Misha! Kak dela?!

Actually my third go at Russian. I took the same Russian 101 class for a couple of weeks about 5 years ago, then had to withdraw for the quarter. Then I worked through some Pimsleur CDs over the last year or so. I could pretty comfortably embarass myself and insult someone at this point, which is always the sweet spot of language learning.

The instructor (I'm fairly sure he's not a professor) is a classic. He's kind of a small, stocky guy that could fit in just as well as a high school PE teacher. And when he gives Russian phrases for the class to repeat, he doesn't speak them, he un-self-consciously belts them out. . as if Misha were his most bosom friend, and seeing him again was his greatest joy. Good fun.

As a sort of quick self-test, I tried to mentally translate all of the phrases we worked on into the other Languages of Interest(tm): Welsh, French, Japanese, and Arabic. I have confirmed that I am despicably rusty, and will be remedying that forthwith.

Next up: Mandarin.
 
 
Joshua
29 March 2004 @ 03:56 pm
Notes:

There is in modern consumer society a fundamental dischord between the apparent, or advertised, self and the actual self. The apparent self is the abstraction of one's personality that one maintains and advertises in order to participate fully in modern civil life. It requires oversimplifying aspects and tendencies, rejecting internal contradiction, and selecting modes of being from a limited menu. Living this way is more helpful to social thinkers, marketers, employers, fellow city-dwellers, and anyone else who must deal with large numbers of people every day. The alternative. . to be fully real, present, and individual .. overwhelms their abstractions, is resented, and does not allow you to participate in the apparent rewards of that life.

There are three ways of resolving this dichotomy. The large majority attempt to balance it in perpetuity, resulting in confusion, spiritual unrest, and mental sickness. Because the healthy human mind cannot maintain two selves, we either select the advertised self as real, in which case all examples of the true self are seen as a failure or abomination, resulting in self-loathing or surrender to failure; or we select the true self as real, but continue to maintain the advertised self in a state of constant resentment and fear of exposure.

The second solution is to attempt to eliminate the real self in favor of the advertised self. This requires constant mental distraction and total immersion in the advertised self. Gluttonous interaction with social and societal tropes that reinforce the existence of the advertised self. Because the advertised self is false, convincing oneself of its trueness requires building structures around it that give it strength, as well as numbing the critical facilities with alcohol or entertaiment. And the recent advent of anti-depressents to regulate emotional faculties is a large step towards chemically eliminating the true self completely.

The third solution. . one that in modern western culture is almost totally abandoned (largely due to the absence of accepted spiritual paths and particularly the absense of monastic lifestyles). . is to embrace the true self and abandon the advertised self. It requires eliminating the cultural and social struts of the false self. . evaluating them instead purely on their inherent merits. . not their ability to maintain the structures of falsity. It requires dealing honestly with all questions of the self. . abandoning vanity, competition, and reflexive self-deprecation for an evolving self-awareness.
 
 
Joshua
08 March 2004 @ 12:25 am
The wayfarer,
Perceiving the pathway to truth,
Was struck with astonishment.
It was thickly grown with weeds.
"Ha," he said,
"I see that none has passed here
In a long time."
Later he saw that each weed
Was a singular knife.
"Well," he mumbled at last,
"Doubtless there are other roads."

  - Stephen Crane
 
 
Joshua
07 March 2004 @ 11:45 pm
From  
From a distance a face in makeup is smooth and clean. . flat. But if you look closely you see the cracks in the patina and the skin underneath. Up close, the queen's gardens house slugs and twisted stumps. It's the same with any sort of beautification. . it only works from a distance. And because as human beings we want to find beauty, and we want to agree about what beauty is, we train ourselves to never come that close. Never to break that illusion.

There is also a patina that covers our every day. It's there to make your life and that of everyone around you a flat, happy narrative. . clean and organized. We know it isn't true, but we can't acknowledge the flaws in that illusion, because we don't know how to live without it.

Poetry is what lives in the cracks you see if you look at life up close. And that's why I like it. Buddhism is what prepares you to look closely and steadies you through it. And that why I like it, too.
 
 
Joshua
05 March 2004 @ 12:01 am
As dictated to [info]obsidian

It’s about broken monster trucks.
This is a broken excavator.
And this is a broken shark, because somebody ate it.
And this is a broken pirate ship, because somebody sailed it
Away and it sank

This is a broken bird with no wings, because there was
A strong wind and its wings blew off because
Somebody didn’t glue them on
And it is the sky
And this is my name